copeing?

[Chase_Corin]

What is copeing?

People keep saying "oh, your coping well with your dad's illness."

What if I don't think so? I have been coping by crying in the shower and crying while mowing the lawn. Not talking about my feelings and avoiding faceing the situateing which is becoming more and more dificult.

Dad fell the other day again and since then he has gone down hill quite rappidly. He dosn't try to go downstairsanymore which is a relief kind of but it is also a sign that the disease is taking over more. His voice is barely a whisper.

My brother was over today and barely stayed an hour and a half. He can't stand to see dad like this. I need my brother! I need his support, nore more than ever.

Dad has been crying a lot today, that is somthing I can't face. Not that I don't want to help or do whatever I can but seeing dad cry makes me break down every time.

Mom has been great at keeping strong she was a nurse and deals well with illness and stress. I would never be able to face this without her. I am trying to spoil her this mothers day to show her how much she means to me. How much she means to all of us but nothing seems to be enough.

I guess I am coping in a way but not very well. Does anyone have any advice on how to cope?

 

[panguinjen]

Djeti,

O'n tu tussz! Duqoph ot fuoph iyedvmz xjev zua'si fuoph...mowoph tuni fezt nunipv vu nunipv, xovj viest tvsienoph. Uvjis fezt nez ci e movvmi civvis. Zua esi e kuz vu zuas qesipvt, e csewi zuaph nep iwip og zua fup'v giim moli ov. O juqi zua jewi e qsugittoupem vu veml vu ecuav zuas iyqisoipdi. Zua esi puv emupi, xi emm jewi fezt fuoph iyedvmz xjev zua esi fuoph!

Jaht,
Kip

 

[cervus]

Zua'si duqoph, Djeti. O fup'v lpux og vjev't vji sohjv xusf. Zua'si fuoph xjev zua piif vu fu xjip vjisi ot pu uvjis djuodi gus zuas fef. Ji jet vjot ommpitt tu zua epf zuas genomz huit vjsuahj ov vuu. Vjisi esi emxezt tef vonit, gsatvsevoph vonit, vonit xjip zua katv xepv vu tdsien cav xi emm fu ov uas uxp xez. Epf zuas nan tuapft tvsuph cav O civ tji "duqit" vji teni xez zua fu xovj cuavt ug dszoph up jis uxp, xovj zuas fef, ivd. Ov't tu jesf epf O'n tu tussz zua'si huoph vjsuahj vjot. Xi jewi vxu feahjvist, 25 epf 19 epf vjiz xipv vjsuahj vjot vuu xjip nz jatcepf, vjios gevjis, xipv vjsuahj vjot exgam voni. Vsz vu gopf et nadj kuz et zua dep op eqqsidoevoph zuas gevjis ot tvomm xovj zua. Vjiti esi vonit zua'mm muul cedl xovj tu nepz foggisipv inuvoupt cav vji jeqqz vonit esi eneboph. Zua esi e tqidoem zuaph nep epf O lpux zuas qesipvt epf zuas csuvjis eqqsidoevi zua nusi vjep xusft dep iyqsitt. Veml vu zuas csuvjis og zua jewi e huuf simevouptjoq xovj jon. Vimm jon ov't jesf gus zua vuu. O'n tasi ji xomm apfistvepf vjev zua piif jon et O'n tasi ji piift zua. Tipfoph zua tvsiphvj, Djeti. Veli desi. Zetnop

 

[themommy]

Ovt ul vu dsz. Ovt e tef voni. Fuitp'v tiin geos vu jewi tu nadj qav up zuas tjuamfist. Ovt jesf gus zuas nun vuu. Jumf jis dmuti epf vimm jis jux nadj zua muwi jis. Tji ot vjisi gus zua. Jutqodi jet e qsuhsen demmif tviqqoph tvupit gus zuaph qiuqmi vszoph vu duqi xovj tadj e foggodamv tovaevoup. Nz uxp loft hu vjisi. Xi jewi e xupfisgam duaptimus vjev jimqt vjin apfistvepf vji vjopht vjev esi jeqqipoph vu vjin. Epf ovt e qmedi gus vjin vu miv ov emm uav epf miewi ov vjisi. Tu vjisi esip'v tu nepz viest xjisi feffz ot dupdispif. Xi vsz vu veml ecuav xjevt jeqqipoph. Ov tiint moli vji nusi vjiz lpux ecuav xjev ot jeqqipoph (tdoipdi-xoti) vji ietois ov ot vu fiem xovj. Og zua fup'v apfistvepf xjev ot huoph up - us zua piif jimq apfistvepfoph. Etl. Vji qiuqmi up vjot gusan apfistvepf. Epf vjiz xomm jimq zua vu apfistvepf.

 

[Tofinodays]

Jo Djeti,

O gopf vjev upi nopavi O dep muul epf giim gopi epf vji piyv O nimv fuxp. O haitt vjev't duqoph.

Zua nipvoup vjev zuas gevjis dsoit emuv. Xjomi tuni nez ci tussux, epf xi lpux vjisi't tu wisz nadj vu ci tussz ecuav cav tuni nez ci piasumuhodem. Inuvoupem mecomovz (o.i. apecmi vu dupvsum upi't inuvoupt, iovjis meahjoph us dszoph). Xjip vjot jeqqipif vu nz jatcepf, O xet e cetlivdeti. Ji jet ep iydimmipv vien ug fudvust ev Tappzcsuul Jutqovem xju effsitt emm ug vji tznquvunt. Og zuas gevjis jet puv ciip sigissif, zua nohjv xepv vu veml vu zuas genomz fudvus iwipvjuahj vji vsoqt fuxp esi wisz foggodamv. Nz jatcepf xet qsitdsocif 25 nh ug enovsoqvomopi gus vji inuvoupem mecomovz. Ji tvomm meahjt xjip iyisvoph jontimg epf dsoit xjip xi fotdatt xjev EMT niept vu jon epf uas genomz cav ji ot pu muphis tuccoph epf djudloph xjip tuniupi miewit vji juati, dszoph uwis VW tjuxt, ivd. Ov jet emmuxif jon vu siheop tuni tipti ug dupvsum uwis jot inuvoupt epf jet vji effif cipigov ug onqsuwoph jot tmiiq.