HarrietO
New member
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- Jun 21, 2011
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- Loved one DX
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- PA
- City
- Pittsburgh
This is my first post... I only wish I had discovered this website sooner.
My mother was diagnosed with ALS about two years ago. Since then I've seen her passions dwindle, but the beautiful and sweet spirit she's always had remains strong. Perhaps, that's the hardest part -- knowing that despite this terrible thing thats happened to her, inside my mother will never change. Its been especially hard for me. I'm going away to college next year. It was a very hard decision. My mother told me to follow my dreams and going to a big city was part of that dream. I know that this choice is what she wants for me, but I cannot help but feel incredibly selfish leaving her with my father and siblings.
She's now on oxygen and it seems to be more and more difficult for her talk. I don't how I'm supposed to feel. I worry that going away is the wrong choice, that I won't be there when she inevitably dies. That I'll constantly put myself down for not staying that extra year.
Does anyone have advice on dealing with grief and depression? Or on dealing with this particular step in the ALS process?
My mother was diagnosed with ALS about two years ago. Since then I've seen her passions dwindle, but the beautiful and sweet spirit she's always had remains strong. Perhaps, that's the hardest part -- knowing that despite this terrible thing thats happened to her, inside my mother will never change. Its been especially hard for me. I'm going away to college next year. It was a very hard decision. My mother told me to follow my dreams and going to a big city was part of that dream. I know that this choice is what she wants for me, but I cannot help but feel incredibly selfish leaving her with my father and siblings.
She's now on oxygen and it seems to be more and more difficult for her talk. I don't how I'm supposed to feel. I worry that going away is the wrong choice, that I won't be there when she inevitably dies. That I'll constantly put myself down for not staying that extra year.
Does anyone have advice on dealing with grief and depression? Or on dealing with this particular step in the ALS process?